Those Moments...

There's those moments in life that are the best moments, the worst and the unbelievable ones. One of my best moments is getting married. To one amazing human being. A person who would do anything for me in a flash, a person who cares about me unconditionally, and loves me through thick and thin. That is one of the most unforgettable moments of my entire life.
Another unforgettable moment is obviously when my little Alexander was born. It was a Sunday morning and I could not believe I was there. It was the most scariest thing of my life. I knew he wasn't suppose to be born yet, and didn't know if he would come out to be healthy. But he was born and although he was small, he was the most beautiful baby I had ever seen. Yet, he looked so fragile and innocent that at times it was hard to be there. Knowing that I couldn't hold my baby like any other mother could, or take him home the next day.. But through out the days he became stronger and stronger and was finally able to come home sooner than planned. After that my life completely changed.
Being a mom has been great, as I have said many times before but it is also really scary. Those times where you don't know whether you're doing things right. If you should do this or that. Feed him this or that. Oh and Breastfeeding... Yeah that's a completely different thing. I tried to as long as I could but because I wasn't always able to breastfeed in the hospital, it made things really difficult. But it was always my favorite thing to do with him. It was like a special bond that only I could have with him. Both of us sleeping together and just being so close. But there was a fear of losing that milk having too much milk and leaking all together. But luckily I  had my mother and mother in law to help and when they weren't there  I had this http://www.babycenter.com/. This was the BEST website ever, any questions I had, they had the answer. If I was worried about anything they were there to ease my mind. Far before I even had Alexander, they took track of how big he was at every week along the way, and every different development. If there is any need of help with a baby this website is the best!
Another great website for help and advice is http://www.thebump.com/. They also had many great ideas to do with your baby and all the developmental stages.
These two websites have made being a mom and wife so much easier.

My Favorite Things of being a mom...

My favorite things of being a mom is being able to watch him grow. To see him change and develop and know that he is getting smarter and bigger every day. I love to see the difference between the five pound baby to now almost twenty pound baby now.
My favorite thing of being a mom is knowing that no matter what happens to make my day crappy I can come home to a happy baby who will always make me smile and laugh.
My favorite thing about being a mom is being able to care for him when he needs me the most. Those days he's sick and doesn't feel good. The days I just want to spend holding him in my arms all day long, knowing that in my arms he will feel better too. And let me tell you when you're a mom and your baby is sick and doesn't feel good, you will do anything to make sure they get better because you feel it too!
My favorite thing about being a mom is watching him peacefully sleep. And even when he sleeps in the strangest positions he still looks so cute. And watching him sleep with his daddy is even better.
My favorite thing about being a mom is all the fun times we get to spend together, the play times the laughter the sweet hugs and kisses.
My favorite thing of being my baby's momma is knowing that he knows me so well, that moment when I come home from school and he greats me with a big huge smile and says "mmaammmaamamaa" that is the favorite part of my day. Coming home to see my little boy.
In all honesty I love being a mom and everything that comes along with it, of course there's things I don't necessarily care to do like those dirty diapers, those long crying nights, but for the most part I love it! I love knowing that he will always be my son, and that nothing could ever change that! I love that he loves me too and although he doesn't talk yet, I can see that love and tenderness in his eyes. The way he looks at me, knowing that I am forever his mommy. The secret connection we have that no one else could compare to. And of course he loves being with his daddy and playing with him, but the connection between me and him is undescribeable. It's something that has grown inside me since the day I found out I was having a little baby boy.  My baby boy is my everything and will always come first in everything!

Being a mom to my baby boy has been pretty fun some days. The days he loves life and laughs all day. But not so much the days he's sick and doesn't want to be with anyone else but me. When he wakes up constantly at night because he has a stuffed nose and can't breathe. All of it has it's ups and downs but everyday is different and everyday has it's special moments. 

Every stepping stone is so great and exciting. And honestly it's really hard not to compare your baby with other people's. You just want the best for him, and you start to get scared, but then you go to the doctor's and he tells you everything is fine and that we should just be patient because he was premature  and will take a little longer to do things.

Yet not to say Alexander is very smart little boy. He crawls around, sits by himself, and is now beginning to walk around everything. He really has grown up so much, and believe when people say that time goes by fast because it so does.  I feel like just a couple weeks ago he was a newborn baby, and he didn't do anything but sleep, eat, and poop. But in reality he's almost a year old and will start to walk any time soon. And although I used to be really excited to see him walk around and soon run around, I'm not so sure I want him to anymore. He's already so clumsy, and getting into everything that he needs supervision at all time. I can only imagine how hard it will be chasing after him all the time. But on the bright side I do have a husband that loves running around and for sure will play with him as much as he can. But for now we will just supervise him and make sure he doesn't put anything in his mouth like he loves to.  

Well being a mom at 17 now 18 has been good and bad. Although many have their opinion on me, my baby, and my family, I don't care for their negative opinions. I am a mother, a wife and a full time student. He obviously wan't planned, but I have never loved or cared about anyone else as much as I love my son. Throughout the process of being pregnant, going to school, working, and having my little Alexander and then returning to school has been a handful of stress. Of course I could have avoided it, but I can't change the past, and to be honest I wouldn't if I could. I love my family, my husband Javier, has always been the best boy I could have ever met. He had always been there for me long before any of these events happened. He has not once given up on me and has always showed me his full support. I have truly had the best support anyone could and that's probably why I am still able to do all of these things like go out every once in a while, go to school and later this fall go to college. Now I do have a pretty great baby and that has worked out for me in the best way. He was almost 2 months premature and was in the hospital for 10 days, but from his first day we knew he was a fighter. He showed improvement everyday, being able to get more and more tubes off of him. When I first saw him, I cried, and if you know me I'm a total cry baby. But at that moment everything seemed to stop, my delivery was fast and I pushed about 4 times and he was born. He had so much hair, but he was on the small side. He weighed 5 pounds 4 ounces and was 19 inches long. He was so beautiful, and although I wasn't able to carry him right away I was so happy the first time I did. Alexander, is really the best baby. He wasn't that crying baby that didn't let you sleep, he was the baby we had to wake up to feed. He slept through the whole night, he only cried when he was hungry, he smiled all the time and was just so happy to be with us. Alexander is definitely my blessing. But that doesn't mean that everything was great and that I suggest you to go out and get pregnant at 17. It's hard work, and people are constantly staring and judging. It's a horrible feeling of being uncomfortable at your own junior prom because everyone is staring straight at your belly. And yes some people might say "She brought it on herself", or even worse things, and I agree. I had a choice, and it wasn't the best choice but I can't change nor do I wish to. It's difficult being a mother, wife and student, but I have been doing okay. Now what I really want you to do is be smart and have fun, because of course there's things I could do but I can't because I'm a mom. So go out and enjoy yourself!